A friend of mine has seen me in the midst of a flashback and panic attack recently and has been helping me get through some of the holidays. He's a great friend and seems to be naturally able to get how to do just that.
But somehow it terrifies me. The only other person that I have this kind of bond with is my fiancé, and every other man I have trusted before with not even half of what I have shared with him has hurt me. How do I navigate this or really any other friendship without being terrified that at some point he'll try to sexually assault me? My gut is telling me that I can trust that he won't but my PTSD is telling me that I'm a fool and that no man is that much of a friend without an ulterior motive.
But somehow it terrifies me. The only other person that I have this kind of bond with is my fiancé, and every other man I have trusted before with not even half of what I have shared with him has hurt me. How do I navigate this or really any other friendship without being terrified that at some point he'll try to sexually assault me? My gut is telling me that I can trust that he won't but my PTSD is telling me that I'm a fool and that no man is that much of a friend without an ulterior motive.