I just wanted to say thank you to everyone this week for the extra support, honest feedback and concern. It’s been a hell of a week and I just really appreciate having someplace to go and talk w people about what’s going on in the mess that is my head.
It’s been a really tough 5 Days or so w emotions, family stuff and a total random story of how I ended up finding a lost dog on Christmas night in -15 degree weather.
The funeral was difficult, it was probably the coldest and most disjointed funeral I’ve ever been to. There were obvious tensions. It wasn’t what my aunt deserved. And then I saw most of the same family on Christmas Eve and they were all venting about it and it’s now caused another rift in our family. The more I heard about the last few months of my aunts life, the more angry and sad I feel. It just turned into a really bad situation and people wanted to take control but then didn’t when they needed to.
I don’t know if I’m still in shock or if I’ve just shut down and shut away those feelings as I usually do when things are really difficult.
I’m trying to relax and start getting myself focused on taking care of myself again, been sorta difficult.