There is an old issue I need to adress again. Its the same Sh* just rewarmed.
I absolutely absolutely hate groups, gatherings, especially groups where there is a hierarchy, maybe in a less obvious way. There are those who are more articulate, stronger and those who are probably more introverted, less attention seeking. There again, I see a dynamic which triggers me. This again, is mostly my individual misconception of power and oppression.
This causes a behaviour when I act as if I dont need others attention or approval. (Wondering why I have no friends.....hmmm strange)
I say things very straightforwardly and usually in a sarcastic/cynical manner to show others I dont need to be liked
One example was being in a group and going out, when I sat down in a different table. saying “oh well....I need some free time“.
Now any “normal“ person would consider this to be strange, and seeing someone who is obviously “unsocial“.
The things is for me, there is this hard wired mechanism that I dont want to want the “liking“. Being this way I will ofcourse not be liked, so why worry?
Then again, if I ask myself what I want, then its usually “power“ be the one who is in charge? Really? What a f* up mind...
I absolutely absolutely hate groups, gatherings, especially groups where there is a hierarchy, maybe in a less obvious way. There are those who are more articulate, stronger and those who are probably more introverted, less attention seeking. There again, I see a dynamic which triggers me. This again, is mostly my individual misconception of power and oppression.
This causes a behaviour when I act as if I dont need others attention or approval. (Wondering why I have no friends.....hmmm strange)
I say things very straightforwardly and usually in a sarcastic/cynical manner to show others I dont need to be liked
One example was being in a group and going out, when I sat down in a different table. saying “oh well....I need some free time“.
Now any “normal“ person would consider this to be strange, and seeing someone who is obviously “unsocial“.
The things is for me, there is this hard wired mechanism that I dont want to want the “liking“. Being this way I will ofcourse not be liked, so why worry?
Then again, if I ask myself what I want, then its usually “power“ be the one who is in charge? Really? What a f* up mind...