The Perperator - All From Teasers To Assassins

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blackpearl

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I just want to say that all of them can take them selves to a hot place an rotten away. They don't deserve pity any of them. I'm so sick of all mentally ill people I don't know what to do here on earth sometimes.

My perpetrator confessed that she's a coward, but still the words of "sorry" doesn't seem to find it's way to her ugly mouth. There doesn't exist something like responsibility for her own guilt.

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I'm so sick of all mentally ill people I don't know what to do here on earth sometimes.

Blackpearl, while I appreciate your anger and frustration and what you mean about your perpetrator....I would be careful of my choice of words as PTSD is a mental illness so you are indirectly referring to all PTSD Sufferers on this forum. Not cool!

Secondly, posting whilst suicidal is not permitted and I am not sure what you are alluding to with "I don't know what to do here on earth sometimes". Please understand that without knowing you and without face to face contact words can be misconstrued.
 
I'm a victim and I need to be angry at the perpetrator. That what this is about. It feels better inside to let go of the anger, it's not useful or healthy in my life or for my body. After 20-30 years one has to let it out, there is no other way for it to go.

I don't see PTSD as a mental illness, it's more a natural effect caused by traumas.

I happen to see you are in the military. For you guys it's different. You need to be angry in war and stop that eminently when you get home. I'm not one of you and we need to handle the side effects of traumas little differently. I don't mean to blame anyone here, this is only my personal feelings what has with my personal traumas to do.

Ptsd is not cool.
I'm not suicidal. Sometimes you just get tired in general after 30 years of it.
And I'm not angry as in angry.

It's only words and OK I think.

OK, I hope I manage to clear en it so nobody takes it wrong.

Once more. I'm not military and I've never been it either.



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Ah OK, no I mean that the rapist and so on is ill who does all the bad things at people!
 
You have just proven my point how words can be misconstrued:

* I have not been in the military
* I have suffered ongoing childhood abuse
* I have been raped as an adult
* I have been physically assaulted as an adult
* I have had my life threatened
* And there is more but, in terms of this forum, I come here as a Carer.

Anger is a natural response to what has happened to you but, for your own well being, you need to work through that otherwise the anger may consume you. I wish you well in getting through your pain.

While you have your views, medically PTSD is a mental illness so I was just pointing out, that without clarification, your generalization may be offensive to those who have the mental illness of PTSD when you use the word "all" IMHO.

It is great you are trying to offload your anger - just as long as you manage that to try and avoid hurting others. My sister has CPTSD & my husband PTSD so I did find your initial post too general as in my world, by definition, you are encompassing them which I take offense to. I could however see you were talking about perpetrators so was just sharing my view/interpretation of what you wrote and sharing that with you.

Oh, and while you are a victim, which I am sorry for, in order to heal your trauma it is important to move past "being a victim" to "having been" one so you do not trap yourself in a mode that does not provide for healing IMHO.

Take care.
 
Hi Nicolette,

I understand you.
But I would appreciate if you rather ask me than think that you know my situation.

I am certainly not going to clarify my personal situation in front of all the readers. The point is what I've already wrote.

I'm also sure you understand that what others have written me already has also an effect on me.

But thank you anyway.


Ps. What does IMHO mean ?
 
I'm so sick of all mentally ill people


Wow, you sure picked the wrong forum to join if you're sick of mentally ill people. Furthermore, I have a brother in law that's schizophrenic and he's the nicest, most gentle person around. And you'd like him to take himself to a hot place and rot? Wow...
 
Hi Jadebear,

I have Ptsd my self and as I said I personally don't consider victims being ill.
I was expressing my anger towards criminals. Rapists, teasers, murderers and so on. All them who willingly causes others pain verbally as physically. I might mean people who has no natural regret within them selves, not caused by Ptsd.

In this case I point my anger towards one family member of mine. She happens to be my perpetrator and I'm not happy with her.

No, I like this forum with all it's ups n downs. I knew when I came here that it's not going to be easy.
 
But don't you see, Blackpearl, you did not say you were sick of criminals. You said you were sick of people with mental illness. People are offended by your statement. Whether it is because, as PTSD sufferers, we have a mental illness (whether you consider it to be one or not) or because making broad general statements against an entire group of people (plenty of people with mental illness beyond PTSD that are not bad people) is just offensive to many people. That's precisely what I believe Nicolette was trying to explain to you when you first started this thread. That your words, as written, could/would be very offensive to many people.
 
Wow....I can't believe how out of had this has all gotten. I have been following this thread and other posts by you BlackPearl. I can almost hear the anger seething out of you. That is so normal with PTSD. It's so easy to misdirect that anger onto the wrong person or situation. Remember that the sufferers here are all hurting and are very sensitive to anger and criticism, that includes you too! We need to try to be understanding and supportive. Wording is very important. My business partner has PTSD too and we get into this discussion often. Even face to face we sometimes misunderstand eachother...but we find that emails or texts it can get really misconstrued.

All that to say, I am glad you are here. This is a place where we can learn to look at our feelings, reactions and concepts honestly and hopefully come to accept where they are not the best way to handle things. It's a process, this changing and healing journey. I hope that you are willing to go on it.....believe me, it takes a lot of courage to really, truly look at yourself and admit where you need to change. I have found the people here to be so encouraging. I can take or leave their insight, but I have found that in most cases what I say is seen clearly and the honest feedback I get has been most helpful ;o)

Welcome to the forum Blackpearl and good luck on your journey!
 
But don't you see, Blackpearl, you did not say you were sick of criminals.

I thought that it would be understood. Perpetrators are acting wrong and they usually get locked up. Perhaps not teasers, but the other ones. Sadistic personalities is ill somehow. They WANT TO HURT and I'm sick of THEM all.

But I start to understand how clear I have to be.

Offended. I get offended too of many things here, but I've chosen to not say anything about it. I prefer to understand the offender MANY TIMES here.

I have PTSD too !

And for me PTSD it's not a ILLNESS like the perpetrators has trouble with !

They are SICK, mentally really really ill.

Murdering is not ok for example. That person who rapes and kills get in jail because he's sick/ill what ever you want to call it.

Do you understand !?

I'm NOT going to repeat my self over and over again.
Either you understand this now or not.

Thank you.
 
Welcome to the forum Blackpearl and good luck on your journey!

Thank you.
Many misunderstandings, but I guess it's a part of it that includes.

When you say I'm angry I'm often not.
I have been angry once and I got what I deserved for it.

Thank you !
 
Well, how ever.

My perpetrator confesses that she is weak and a coward, but can't just say the word: "Sorry".

It is a complicated relationship and it takes a lot of time and work for me to come in peace with the past if the perpetrators doesn't confess her mistakes.

But it can be possible, even if it's hard.

I can't be angry enough sometimes. The anger don't seem to find any ending sometimes because of her denial.
 
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