The Shadow

[turrican]

I've started diaries, of sorts, on other websites before. These websites tend to be forums for overcoming internet-based addictions. You may have noticed the irony there - online forums for overcoming online addictions. I felt the need to start a new diary, but wasn't blown away by the prospect of starting another of those types of diaries. Then I thought of this place and here we are.

I would have probably fully overcome the addiction(s) were it not for my PTSD and/or other mental health problems that keep driving me back to addiction.

Lately I've had a lot of depressive thoughts about something that society would say I've "failed" to achieve (little or no blame seems to go towards abusive people, I notice). Having another attempt at that thing is pretty much out of the question as it's become a fully-fledged phobia with PTSD overtones, if you like. Technically it might be possible but it would involve a lot of time, money and probably some harmful drugs such as benzos. Nonetheless, not having "achieved" that thing is depressing.

One potential solution to my depressive thoughts came to me last night. Byron Katie's questions. I've used these before, but not for ages. These are the ones I've used mainly:

• Is it true?
• Is it absolutely true?
• Who would I be without this story?
• Imagine your perfect world.

There are other somewhat similar techniques: the Sedona Method, the Healing Code and so on. None of them are probably all that scientifically rigorous, but they're better than nothing.

 

[Adobe]

It is hard when you don’t know where to turn and each path does not bring you to where you would like to be. I have walked that path of self defeating thoughts and behavior. I finally got on my face on the floor and cried agonizing tears of sorrow over the past and what I had done and what I had not done with my life. All I can tell you is that a hope was born in my life. Instead of reaching out to modules and methods maybe reaching, searching and examining inside of yourself will bring answers. I know those days of circling can be over for you too. But it will take brutal honesty and perhaps seeing things as they really are and not what you intellectually perceive them to be. Best to you.

 

[turrican]

I would argue, why not both? Why does it have to be one or the other? As in, why not make use of "grieving sessions" (if you like) as well as "modules and methods"?

Anyway, good luck to you.

 

[Adobe]

I would argue, why not both? Why does it have to be one or the other? As in, why not make use of "grieving sessions" (if you like) as well as "modules and methods"?

Anyway, good luck to you.

Modules and methods instruct and are helpful in many ways but it is in the work of applying the information to the soul I became free. It is not either or in reality. Sorry for not being more clear. We have to work the work, in my opinion. Have a good day