The Silence
Please
I beg you
Anything
But that.
You know
How it pains me
To speak about this.
A past
I do not want
To remember
Ever again.
Where pain
Walked beside me
It's hands
In mine.
Caused by
A family member
Younger than me.
As his whipping post
For his anger
Against the world.
Author notes: this poem is the product of my attempt to revive, an old project that I had set aside, in 2010. Stupid, stupid me. I had started to write about myself and my past, in a series of monologues, that I have posted on another site. I found, the deeper, i got, the more traumatic, it became for me. Almost like I was having a PTSD flashback, with each section, I completed.
I faced abuse, on two fronts, at home, and on the schoolyard. At home, the physical and emotional abuse came primarily, at the hand's, of my younger brother. I won't name him, as I don't want to dignify his actions towards me or his name. Sadly, I find it very hard to talk to anyone, about this part of my past, hence, the title.
I hope this doesn't act, as a trigger, for any members.
Please
I beg you
Anything
But that.
You know
How it pains me
To speak about this.
A past
I do not want
To remember
Ever again.
Where pain
Walked beside me
It's hands
In mine.
Caused by
A family member
Younger than me.
As his whipping post
For his anger
Against the world.
Author notes: this poem is the product of my attempt to revive, an old project that I had set aside, in 2010. Stupid, stupid me. I had started to write about myself and my past, in a series of monologues, that I have posted on another site. I found, the deeper, i got, the more traumatic, it became for me. Almost like I was having a PTSD flashback, with each section, I completed.
I faced abuse, on two fronts, at home, and on the schoolyard. At home, the physical and emotional abuse came primarily, at the hand's, of my younger brother. I won't name him, as I don't want to dignify his actions towards me or his name. Sadly, I find it very hard to talk to anyone, about this part of my past, hence, the title.
I hope this doesn't act, as a trigger, for any members.
