...the sun no longer shines on me

[the.lone.wolf]

spent the entire day in bed staring blankly at my ceiling, like I always do....

feeling crippled, locked in a state of fear and anxiety, while floods of suicidal thoughts cycle through my mind...I think I killed myself in my mind 8 times today...

I played the same song on repeat for hours...I feel like I'm punishing myself

I have no desire to "get better"...all I do is hurt people, I'm a horrible friend, a terrible son, a f*cking parasite and a cancer...

I wish my body didn't feel so unfamiliar, I'm so very tired...

 

[Heatwavez]

This resonates with me, I’m sorry you’re feeling this way, I know it sucks to not even feel like it’s worth it to try to get better. Sending good energy your way, for what it’s worth.

 

[Sadderday]

spent the entire day in bed staring blankly at my ceiling, like I always do....

feeling crippled, locked in a state of fear and anxiety, while floods of suicidal thoughts cycle through my mind...I think I killed myself in my mind 8 times today...

I played the same song on repeat for hours...I feel like I'm punishing myself

I have no desire to "get better"...all I do is hurt people, I'm a horrible friend, a terrible son, a f*cking parasite and a cancer...

I wish my body didn't feel so unfamiliar, I'm so very tired...

When you are in a funk like this, the last thing you should do is the old "lay and stare'. What I do is turn on a comedy movie; if you really feel bad, those happy a-holes will piss you off, but don't forget they are actors pretending to be happy like we do everyday! Or, I will call someone or go outside because it's easier to fake happy in front of other people.