Hopemeanslife
Bronze Member
I have been with my therapist for about 6months every week, I’m starting to find it taxing, kind of feels like a relationship? I guess it is in some ways. But I want out at this point, I don’t know why but anything about having to see someone on a weekly basis really angers me.
At one point obviously I loved seeing him and thought he was great and now I just am over the whole thing. I mean it has been nice to talk to someone about how I’ve been feeling especially as my symptoms are probably at its worst point, therapy opened up a lot of flashbacks I would say, I never experienced them until I started going therapy and funny enough I don’t even think we spoke about my triggers for there to be a trigger.
I guess I will miss seeing him in ways but at the same time I don’t think I am cut out for any form of relationship with anyone on any level it’s just too difficult.
I’m meant to have EMDR and TF-CBT at some point this year so I need a break from all these people, I find it takes a lot of energy to sit and talk to these people especially for me because then I go to work after. Hopefully that will do something, I’m not sure what the plan of action is to even move through this all and get better, all they do is say you need therapy, but what is therapy meant to do for people. I’m so confused how people are expected to forget everything by just talking to someone.
I was worried at some point during therapy that I wouldn’t cope if I didn’t have him to talk to so he extended my sessions for longer. But now it’s all just like I didn’t feel that way at all, because I realised that I don’t have anyone on my side, not really, no one quite understands what it is really like, what everyday is really like, and well I live that everyday so I’m sure I’ll live without him
At one point obviously I loved seeing him and thought he was great and now I just am over the whole thing. I mean it has been nice to talk to someone about how I’ve been feeling especially as my symptoms are probably at its worst point, therapy opened up a lot of flashbacks I would say, I never experienced them until I started going therapy and funny enough I don’t even think we spoke about my triggers for there to be a trigger.
I guess I will miss seeing him in ways but at the same time I don’t think I am cut out for any form of relationship with anyone on any level it’s just too difficult.
I’m meant to have EMDR and TF-CBT at some point this year so I need a break from all these people, I find it takes a lot of energy to sit and talk to these people especially for me because then I go to work after. Hopefully that will do something, I’m not sure what the plan of action is to even move through this all and get better, all they do is say you need therapy, but what is therapy meant to do for people. I’m so confused how people are expected to forget everything by just talking to someone.
I was worried at some point during therapy that I wouldn’t cope if I didn’t have him to talk to so he extended my sessions for longer. But now it’s all just like I didn’t feel that way at all, because I realised that I don’t have anyone on my side, not really, no one quite understands what it is really like, what everyday is really like, and well I live that everyday so I’m sure I’ll live without him