The past year or so has been really hard for me. I’m 19 and just started going to therapy for things that happened for years in my childhood. This year has been the first time I’ve admitted I needed help and that my anxiety and cptsd were out of control. (I didn’t know it was cptsd but makes sense now). With that I go to therapy once a week and after ever session I feel so drained and I am more likely to have nightmares or flashback that evening or the next day. It makes me not want to go or truly discuss things because if I discuss the worst I’m afraid the flashbacks will happen and become worse. I just feel like therapy is making me worse rather than helping me. People also say it gets worse before it gets better but I don’t think it’s suppose to get this bad. Recently it just makes me more suicidal because of the influx of flashbacks and nightmares. I have never been so suicidal and it scares me.