So I went to therapy again today just like every week and just like every week I leave frustrated because I can't talk about the trauma's. I freeze and that sucks and I am wondering if I will EVER be able to face someone and talk about it. I have talked about some of it here in my diary but I can't do it in a room with someone, whom I trust and I know won't judge me. ARGHHHHHHH so F^&% frustrating. I am on the verge of giving up therapy, giving up the meds and going back to avoidance. I thought I was F'ed up before, I am really worse now so why not go back, it was a better place. SERIOUSLY, I am spending $20 a session, every damn week and I am getting no where with actually getting this out and worked on, what is the damn point.