whiteraven
MyPTSD Pro
I'm having more days lately when I feel completely apathetic, then very depressed. I've had no appetite for a couple of months (still eating, though, so it's not creating an issue), the things that I usually turn to for comfort when I feel bad--admittedly mostly not incredibly healthy--are of no interest to me, I don't want to do anything or go anywhere.
I'm managing. But I'm *only* managing. It didn't help that I volunteered for something at work this past week and had to go onsite three days. That's nearly 14 hours away from home (because it takes at least an hour to get there). I think I probably over-commit to things, things I don't really want to do. But if I didn't, I'd never go out or talk to people. And I'd just sit here with my cats and watch TV all day. That sounds really good in many ways, but then I'd feel guilty for not finding my passion and doing something.
The things I'm involved in are not things I hate (except in the sense that I really hate almost everything right now); they just don't mean much to me.
Not sure why I'm writing, except I have no one I can talk to about any of this; this place is pretty much it right now.
I'm managing. But I'm *only* managing. It didn't help that I volunteered for something at work this past week and had to go onsite three days. That's nearly 14 hours away from home (because it takes at least an hour to get there). I think I probably over-commit to things, things I don't really want to do. But if I didn't, I'd never go out or talk to people. And I'd just sit here with my cats and watch TV all day. That sounds really good in many ways, but then I'd feel guilty for not finding my passion and doing something.
The things I'm involved in are not things I hate (except in the sense that I really hate almost everything right now); they just don't mean much to me.
Not sure why I'm writing, except I have no one I can talk to about any of this; this place is pretty much it right now.