To Love Me Is To Love A Haunted House

[shimmerz]

http://www.upworthy.com/how-is-an-a...unted-house-one-poet-will-tell-you?g=2&c=upw1

I often wonder how people 'do it' with me. Most have been unsuccessful. Because my anxiety and trauma reactions have been ridiculous along the way. I honestly don't know if I could do it. Support me.

Anyway, here is her Youtube video. Just wondering if anyone has any thoughts on this.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

That was a fabulous video. It really captures a lot of emotion. I am lucky enough to have a husband who can support me and love me, but it isn't enough. I want others to take that dare and love me, too. Not that I am ungrateful for my husband's love, but he can't be the only one supporting me- he can't be here every moment. But I often feel tainted- avoided like the neighborhood haunted house (to stick with the theme). Thanks for posting that.

 

[Powder]

haunted house

beautifully tragic

boarded up and broken

tinderbox of termites

and, a lot of potential for the right investor

 

[TXbandit]

Shit. She had me on the verge of bawling but I'm not about being vulnerable these days. Kept it together right along with her. Just barely...

It made my heart ache. Ache because I know it will always be that way. I just wish I could knock down those walls and allow myself to be loved again. I've pushed everyone that does love me away except for my mother. I keep slapping on more cement and stacking the bricks higher.