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I am having trouble running a decision and am hoping to gather perspectives from others if so inclined to comment.
Background:
My T has been away for several months due to illness. I had established if dropping a care package at some point is appropriate and was given approval to do so by T. (Our boundaries are solid, but I do struggle with parts of me wanting T’s support too much). This week I tried to deliver a package 3 times during office hours but the main door was locked (no receptionist). T has said to drop it off tomorrow, and will be there
Before T went off ill, we had started to work on a difficult part of my childhood. It took quite a bit for me to manage and clean it up on my own, but I have.
I am not ready to see T, but do want to drop off the package. Also do not want to be childish about interacting with T....would like to know how they are fairing.....
To protect the pieces of me that are afraid to open wounds that took substantial effort to shut....again (even just seeing T could be a problem) or, face it and behave like a well adjusted adult - minus any indication of emotion lol
thanks!
Background:
My T has been away for several months due to illness. I had established if dropping a care package at some point is appropriate and was given approval to do so by T. (Our boundaries are solid, but I do struggle with parts of me wanting T’s support too much). This week I tried to deliver a package 3 times during office hours but the main door was locked (no receptionist). T has said to drop it off tomorrow, and will be there
Before T went off ill, we had started to work on a difficult part of my childhood. It took quite a bit for me to manage and clean it up on my own, but I have.
I am not ready to see T, but do want to drop off the package. Also do not want to be childish about interacting with T....would like to know how they are fairing.....
To protect the pieces of me that are afraid to open wounds that took substantial effort to shut....again (even just seeing T could be a problem) or, face it and behave like a well adjusted adult - minus any indication of emotion lol
thanks!