Too Much At Once

[KwanYingirl]

I have so much to do to pare down my 3 bedroom house with an attic and cellar full of 40 years of crap. I have to sell my house and live in a smaller space that won't cost as much to heat. I just can't muster the ambition to get this done. This morning I pulled out the files of my lawsuit against the hospital that poisoned me. I want to take it all to Staples and have it shred. It is bringing up overwhelming sadness and anger because even though I had a strong case, my lawyer didn't think I'd live through a trial due to my PTSD so I settled for enough money to pay back my parents who paid my mortgage for a year. Justice was not served. Not then and not in my abuse filled childhood. Not when I was strangled and left to die but I didn't. So much anxiety I went back to bed. So much anxiety I am sick of it. Is PTSD actually an anxiety disorder??

 

[digger]

Try breaking the task down into much smaller jobs or amounts of time - I figure it is better to get a little bit of something done than a lot of nothing :)

Before I moved to my current house I shredded a lot of legal type paperwork I'd been holding on to from a time my ex and I had been going through courts etc solicitors letters, police stuff, court reports - it ground me to a halt at times seeing it, but it was actually very freeing once I got started.

Could you get hold of a small shredder that you could use at home? That way you could do it a few sheets at a time instead of it needing to be everything in one go.[DOUBLEPOST=1402167445,1402167292][/DOUBLEPOST]Oh and yes, I think PTSD is often grouped with anxiety disorders.

 

[KwanYingirl]

I managed three loads to the dump and put the legal stuff in the car. Enough for the day. You are right it is easier to do a little at a time. Law suits are pretty crazy making, huh?