Between the Bars
Learning
Hello. My spouse has a CPTSD and DID from early childhood trauma. I'm so overwhelmed with the years of switching and flashbacks to trauma. I don't even know where to start. None of this is new, I just feel like I'm sinking further and further. I never know what she'll say next. But I've been on this rollercoaster for well over two decades and I know how this all plays out. As usual I'm taking a supportive role and validating which helps her immensely and things have now calmed down. The lastest flashbacks involved infidelity as she was in altered state. Or they may have occurred earlier. Mostly fragments and no real timeline. I'm just in my bedroom trying to numb out. I'm have been drinking more than I ever have. I'm all alone. So I thought maybe I'd try posting on here. I have so much anger and sadness and fear. I also equally feel bad for her as I know she's struggling and scared. Just so overwhelmed and tired of life. Just needed to get this out.