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So my therapy session tomorrow will obviously be me losing the pretence of the tiny shred of dignity that I like to think I have left, and talk about my transference to/with/for my T. Again.
It's so unbelievably painful. I've been reading uphill and downdale about it. But all the reading I have done I still can't fathom: how to solve it.
My T is good. We connect. She has raised it. I have raised it. She explains it. She normalised it. She's managing it.
But these last two days I have had such intense feelings. Awful. So painful. So embarrassing. I'm obsessing about her. I can't focus on work. (These last two days it's been intense becuase she said she would email me in our last session, and just took her time to. Put me in an utter spin - totally disproportionate to the situation. Tears and everything - and this is tears from someone who has only just learned to cry aged 41).
Have you gone through this?
Please please tell me how you have gotten passed it and how these painful emotions have gone.
It's so unbelievably painful. I've been reading uphill and downdale about it. But all the reading I have done I still can't fathom: how to solve it.
My T is good. We connect. She has raised it. I have raised it. She explains it. She normalised it. She's managing it.
But these last two days I have had such intense feelings. Awful. So painful. So embarrassing. I'm obsessing about her. I can't focus on work. (These last two days it's been intense becuase she said she would email me in our last session, and just took her time to. Put me in an utter spin - totally disproportionate to the situation. Tears and everything - and this is tears from someone who has only just learned to cry aged 41).
Have you gone through this?
Please please tell me how you have gotten passed it and how these painful emotions have gone.