Now that sounds super melodramatic.
I recently felt a very strange shift in my brain. Dissociation is nothing new to me, it seems to be a constant, but I have usually just experienced it as being "spaced out" and getting lost easily.
However, over the past couple weeks, it's gone into overdrive. I spend all of my waking time taking careful consideration of every sound I hear, every object I see, connecting everything very slowly in a weirdly intensive dreamlike analytic.. trance. Moving so slowwww, talking so slowww. People staring at me with weird looks in public.
I'm having trouble communicating with people, to the point where everyone I talk to is asking me if I am okay. I think I am okay. My driving and working are suffering though.
There isn't any overwhelming negativity or anxiety, and I haven't recently encountered any triggers that I know of. But it is honestly pretty debilitating if I am expected to do anything but follow noises or stare at things that catch my attention for a minute and try to understand what reality is. And reality isn't even anything. I honestly feel like I am in a neverending dream, or deeep in the zone I enter when I try to make something of art at a gallery. But I can not snap out of it.
I know it probably sounds ridiculous and like I am just whining about something stupid, but it's really really intense and kind of freaking me out.
Anyone else familiar with this feeling? Or have any advice?
I recently felt a very strange shift in my brain. Dissociation is nothing new to me, it seems to be a constant, but I have usually just experienced it as being "spaced out" and getting lost easily.
However, over the past couple weeks, it's gone into overdrive. I spend all of my waking time taking careful consideration of every sound I hear, every object I see, connecting everything very slowly in a weirdly intensive dreamlike analytic.. trance. Moving so slowwww, talking so slowww. People staring at me with weird looks in public.
I'm having trouble communicating with people, to the point where everyone I talk to is asking me if I am okay. I think I am okay. My driving and working are suffering though.
There isn't any overwhelming negativity or anxiety, and I haven't recently encountered any triggers that I know of. But it is honestly pretty debilitating if I am expected to do anything but follow noises or stare at things that catch my attention for a minute and try to understand what reality is. And reality isn't even anything. I honestly feel like I am in a neverending dream, or deeep in the zone I enter when I try to make something of art at a gallery. But I can not snap out of it.
I know it probably sounds ridiculous and like I am just whining about something stupid, but it's really really intense and kind of freaking me out.
Anyone else familiar with this feeling? Or have any advice?