I’m new to this forum & it’s the anniversary of my Moms death today.
Even typing that out I feel like I want to avoid it & run away! I feel anxious.
My Mom died 14 years ago suddenly. I was 11 & I heard it happen in the next room. I remember being in bed sobbing unconsolobly, knowing deep down what had happened.
My Mom was ill for most of my life, she suffered from an autoimmune disease which meant she was in a wheelchair.
I have been to the cemetry this morning & had a good vent, which makes me feel better.
I’ve been struggling to cope recently & have been having very passive suicidal thoughts. I would never act on them but it’s new for me.
I am in recovery from gambling addiction & also have misused alcohol in the past. This year is my first 6 months with no real compulsive behavior.
I do not want my life to be the same next year. I might feel bad on this day, but I don’t want to be in the same place!
I feel numb & nothing about the trauma today & I feel guilty for that!
Even typing that out I feel like I want to avoid it & run away! I feel anxious.
My Mom died 14 years ago suddenly. I was 11 & I heard it happen in the next room. I remember being in bed sobbing unconsolobly, knowing deep down what had happened.
My Mom was ill for most of my life, she suffered from an autoimmune disease which meant she was in a wheelchair.
I have been to the cemetry this morning & had a good vent, which makes me feel better.
I’ve been struggling to cope recently & have been having very passive suicidal thoughts. I would never act on them but it’s new for me.
I am in recovery from gambling addiction & also have misused alcohol in the past. This year is my first 6 months with no real compulsive behavior.
I do not want my life to be the same next year. I might feel bad on this day, but I don’t want to be in the same place!
I feel numb & nothing about the trauma today & I feel guilty for that!