Hello. I used to be on this forum, joined back in 2014, but I don't remember any of the details for the old account and I'm fairly sure I actually deleted it. So here goes...
I'm a 19 years old girl on disability, and in addition I occasionally make some money on my art. I'm a survivor of bullying, neglect, emotional, physical, and sexual abuse, as well as something that would land between child prostitution and human trafficking I guess (my mother sold me).
Long story short, my mother kicked my dad out when I was 4, and I spent the next years living with my abusive mother. At 12 I took my little sister and ran away to my dad, where I lived till I was 15, before moving to a foster care, and then another one. Stayed with the last one for 2 years, before I moved on my own at 17. With full freedom, I developed an alcohol problem, which escalated the psychosis that had started when I was 13, and about a year and a half later I was hospitalised against my will for 4 months (all the other hospitalisations were only 1-3 weeks). That got the alcoholism under control, and I got put on stronger meds that actually work.
Now, a year later, I'm on a med combo of 3 meds (Fluanxol, Strattera, Atarax), and it's working great. I have, for the first time in my life, gotten a great therapist, and we're working on both general talk therapy and DBT. In about 5 months I'm moving to the other side of the country to move in with my boyfriend. My mother has been reported for what she did, and the case is under investigation.
Basically, things are going surprisingly well, but the trauma and following disorders are still there. I'm diagnosed with C-PTSD, paranoid schizophrenia, ADHD, tourettes, and an unspecified dissociative disorder which is probably either OSDD or DID. I already know supportive online communities are very helpful, so I came back here.
Also, how do I change my avatar? ?
I'm a 19 years old girl on disability, and in addition I occasionally make some money on my art. I'm a survivor of bullying, neglect, emotional, physical, and sexual abuse, as well as something that would land between child prostitution and human trafficking I guess (my mother sold me).
Long story short, my mother kicked my dad out when I was 4, and I spent the next years living with my abusive mother. At 12 I took my little sister and ran away to my dad, where I lived till I was 15, before moving to a foster care, and then another one. Stayed with the last one for 2 years, before I moved on my own at 17. With full freedom, I developed an alcohol problem, which escalated the psychosis that had started when I was 13, and about a year and a half later I was hospitalised against my will for 4 months (all the other hospitalisations were only 1-3 weeks). That got the alcoholism under control, and I got put on stronger meds that actually work.
Now, a year later, I'm on a med combo of 3 meds (Fluanxol, Strattera, Atarax), and it's working great. I have, for the first time in my life, gotten a great therapist, and we're working on both general talk therapy and DBT. In about 5 months I'm moving to the other side of the country to move in with my boyfriend. My mother has been reported for what she did, and the case is under investigation.
Basically, things are going surprisingly well, but the trauma and following disorders are still there. I'm diagnosed with C-PTSD, paranoid schizophrenia, ADHD, tourettes, and an unspecified dissociative disorder which is probably either OSDD or DID. I already know supportive online communities are very helpful, so I came back here.
Also, how do I change my avatar? ?