Other Triggered By Criticism And Accusations And Seeing Conflict

FreeSoul

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I imagine standing up for myself against a bully/an abuser, or sharing my opinion with someone, I immediately see another person accusing me back or criticizing my opinion.
I do have a very critical father, and over the past 4 years have been accused back when I tried to stand for myself against 3 narcissists.

Whenever I see a conflict in real life, I get triggered heavily, and I start victimizing myself.
e.g. I witness 2 men having a verbal spat on the street, I start feeling crazy, and start imagining how I would handle that. Just 2 days back I was watching a video of a cop arresting a criminal and I started imagining myself getting arrested.
I grew up in a family and in a neighborhood where there had been lots of verbal and physical abuse and conflict. Though, I personally faced very little, I was witness to many incidents.
I was also victimised by my elder siblings and my parents for their problems and stress. They tried to shame and blame me when they got into trouble.
 

AnnieMae

Confident
I imagine standing up for myself against a bully/an abuser, or sharing my opinion with someone, I immediately see another person accusing me back or criticizing my opinion.
I do have a very critical father, and over the past 4 years have been accused back when I tried to stand for myself against 3 narcissists.

Whenever I see a conflict in real life, I get triggered heavily, and I start victimizing myself.
e.g. I witness 2 men having a verbal spat on the street, I start feeling crazy, and start imagining how I would handle that. Just 2 days back I was watching a video of a cop arresting a criminal and I started imagining myself getting arrested.
I grew up in a family and in a neighborhood where there had been lots of verbal and physical abuse and conflict. Though, I personally faced very little, I was witness to many incidents.
I was also victimised by my elder siblings and my parents for their problems and stress. They tried to shame and blame me when they got into trouble.
I imagine standing up to my abuser too, and having a better life, but it just isn’t happening to me. It was really confusing when I was blamed and things did not work out how I wanted them to. I wasted all my good years on someone who was just using me.
 

Rani G

MyPTSD Pro
Whenever I see a conflict in real life, I get triggered heavily, and I start victimizing myself.
Can relate big time. I was punished as a kid with various tactics by nuns or caregiver. Locked in a basement/room, physical punishment or a little bit like in the joker movie, smiling when you are being punished. I do understand.
 
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