The_One
Learning
I have been okay. On medications and doing therapy. Working away full time remote. Has been nice , even though I have not been paid the way I want to be paid (16 Hr for my job title isn’t great) I’m content.
My company is having a merger and I didn’t think twice about it until I noticed one of my ex roommates who’s also employed with the company is gone. She’s in another dept. I tried looking her up on teams and noticed she was gone! So I texted her and she said she was laid off a couple weeks ago. No one has mentioned any lay offs to anyone. Like I was surprised to hear this info!!
I’ve been laid off before during the pandemic. The fact that unemployment had the Covid payment on top of it really helped.
Now I’m hearing about lay offs from this merger my company has merged with. I didn’t know there were any until today when I texted my friend! I then went on the internet and put my company’s name and layoffs and sure enough there’s a forum that’s completely anon where they’re talking about the pending layoffs.
I’m getting so triggered by this. I’ve had some traumatic experiences from my work places which in the past two years I’ve managed to overcome somewhat.
But now I’m being triggered again. I’ve only been at the company 8 months and im still new. I could be on the chopping block. Im starting to look for new jobs this weekend. I wanted to stay at this job for atleast a year before trying to find something else….
I feel hopeless I feel drained I feel saddened. I feel like I shouldnt worry Too much because it might affect my performance but im a worrier. Idk what worrying can do but I feel like the only thing I can do right now is worry.
I feel so helpless. Im not able to get my career off the ground. This is so frustrating to me
I need to sleep but can’t. I’m thinking about this!
My company is having a merger and I didn’t think twice about it until I noticed one of my ex roommates who’s also employed with the company is gone. She’s in another dept. I tried looking her up on teams and noticed she was gone! So I texted her and she said she was laid off a couple weeks ago. No one has mentioned any lay offs to anyone. Like I was surprised to hear this info!!
I’ve been laid off before during the pandemic. The fact that unemployment had the Covid payment on top of it really helped.
Now I’m hearing about lay offs from this merger my company has merged with. I didn’t know there were any until today when I texted my friend! I then went on the internet and put my company’s name and layoffs and sure enough there’s a forum that’s completely anon where they’re talking about the pending layoffs.
I’m getting so triggered by this. I’ve had some traumatic experiences from my work places which in the past two years I’ve managed to overcome somewhat.
But now I’m being triggered again. I’ve only been at the company 8 months and im still new. I could be on the chopping block. Im starting to look for new jobs this weekend. I wanted to stay at this job for atleast a year before trying to find something else….
I feel hopeless I feel drained I feel saddened. I feel like I shouldnt worry Too much because it might affect my performance but im a worrier. Idk what worrying can do but I feel like the only thing I can do right now is worry.
I feel so helpless. Im not able to get my career off the ground. This is so frustrating to me
I need to sleep but can’t. I’m thinking about this!