Triggers again


So my daily chores is recognizing I am triggered once again and then see those feelings. Yesterday l apologized because l was very angry at a good friend. I was sick twice at their place. I finally told them that my ex made sick for two years straight, so getting sick is a trigger because l am afraid. It was so bad, that l complained to my mom, and my brother called for a policeman to come to my house. But l didn't want my beautiful smart daughter leaving our house. So l lied to the police.

So triggers. I don't like short men, because l suffered a date rape. He was short. He locked me in his van.