So I have a habit of committing to abusive people. I was taught to accept verbal and emotional abuse and neglect from a pretty young age. I’ve never managed to have a healthy relationship. But I think I might have a shot at one currently. Thing is, it takes very little to convince me that I shouldn’t trust this guy. That he doesn’t actually love me. That he’s just using me. That he’s just not right for me for whatever reason I can find, basically. I don’t mean to convince myself of these things. Trying pretty hard to convince myself of the opposite, actually. Anyway, I keep pushing him away and I don’t know how to stop doing it.