Hello, My name is Brian I suffer with ptsd. 12 yrs in the military most of the time with spec ops. I have seen alot! I have sleeping disorders and at times anger problems. I have start to have anxiety issues now. I see a therapist and am learning how to contorl my fears and deal with my dream (flash backs) and how to be honest with myself. Putting me first instead of last. And many other issues as well...
I feel like coward.
I have been in combat and lead men to hell and back and I can't cope with the civilian world. I have been so blessed to have a true friend in my life partner, she and I have alot in common have know each other for 14 yrs now. We both suffer from ptsd. Hers comes from a bad marriage lack of trust and mental and physical abuse. I love her so very much.... I have helped her through her divorce and other problems. Now she is helping me through my this phase of my life. We both have gone back to school, to start new careers. Hooha!!
I have problems in relationships with trust and betrayal. I hide my feelings and emotions from others and sometimes her. I sometimes lie about my thoughts and feelings so I don't feel like I am a bother to her. This things are cause problems in our relationship. I often feel like I can do anything right. I am trying hard to change to be a better person and just feel like a failure. I was given this site to look at I have never done anything like this before. I hope you don't find me to stupit!
I am just trying to find other to help me help myself and my wonderful woman
May we all find peace with ourselves....
I feel like coward.
I have been in combat and lead men to hell and back and I can't cope with the civilian world. I have been so blessed to have a true friend in my life partner, she and I have alot in common have know each other for 14 yrs now. We both suffer from ptsd. Hers comes from a bad marriage lack of trust and mental and physical abuse. I love her so very much.... I have helped her through her divorce and other problems. Now she is helping me through my this phase of my life. We both have gone back to school, to start new careers. Hooha!!
I have problems in relationships with trust and betrayal. I hide my feelings and emotions from others and sometimes her. I sometimes lie about my thoughts and feelings so I don't feel like I am a bother to her. This things are cause problems in our relationship. I often feel like I can do anything right. I am trying hard to change to be a better person and just feel like a failure. I was given this site to look at I have never done anything like this before. I hope you don't find me to stupit!
I am just trying to find other to help me help myself and my wonderful woman
May we all find peace with ourselves....