OnMyOwnTime
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After a bout of hypothyroidism, I thought I would be fine once I was diagnosed and starting taking thyroid pills. Instead I've entered the twilight zone. My psychiatrist recently told me that apparently I no longer have the mental energy to compensate for PTSD and I am experiencing dissociation. I didn't know I had PTSD, I thought that was only experienced by soldiers and disaster survivors, and the only thing I knew about dissociation was Sybil with all her personalities.
I've been seeing psychiatrists all my life for recurrent depressions and panic attacks due to a rough childhood. I've had some therapy but for years I've been doing fine on just meds. But now things are so messed up, I can't even work. I'm always late, sometimes really really late. My friends have asked me over and over what I was doing, but I don't know. To me, time seems to jump around. A couple of times I've come out of a reverie to find myself driving my car with no idea where I am going. The first time I almost had a heart attack when I suddenly found myself driving down the freeway.
Something I was trying to look up today was how when I get really stressed it is like my mind starts stuttering. Instead of moving continuously through time, it's like a slideshow: I'm sitting on the bus then (next slide) I'm sitting on a bench then (next slide) I'm sitting in the waiting room, with no recall of what happened between slides. I tried looking it up here but my search only brought up actual slideshows and flashbacks that were like slideshows.
Does anyone else experience this?
I've been seeing psychiatrists all my life for recurrent depressions and panic attacks due to a rough childhood. I've had some therapy but for years I've been doing fine on just meds. But now things are so messed up, I can't even work. I'm always late, sometimes really really late. My friends have asked me over and over what I was doing, but I don't know. To me, time seems to jump around. A couple of times I've come out of a reverie to find myself driving my car with no idea where I am going. The first time I almost had a heart attack when I suddenly found myself driving down the freeway.
Something I was trying to look up today was how when I get really stressed it is like my mind starts stuttering. Instead of moving continuously through time, it's like a slideshow: I'm sitting on the bus then (next slide) I'm sitting on a bench then (next slide) I'm sitting in the waiting room, with no recall of what happened between slides. I tried looking it up here but my search only brought up actual slideshows and flashbacks that were like slideshows.
Does anyone else experience this?