Um. I don't think I have PTSD but I think that my mother may have had it. Growing up my mother would react to certain stimuli that would remind her of her abuse and would have a break down. On more than one occasion I was left alone with her and had to help her come back from that. She was nearly beaten to death by her mother and locked in a closet. If we played hide and seek and I hid in a closet, not understanding at the time. She'd freak out and it was like she was a totally different person. I just want to understand her a little better. She's dead now but I'm hoping that maybe if I can understand her mental illness or whatever I can better understand mine and why I am the way I am. If anyone knows of a site or something could you please contact me? I guess that means leaving a comment. Thanks and sorry this was so rushed.