Does anyone here have a hard time watching TV shows because of the content in it? I love 24, and I still watch it, but it's really hard not to spiral into a dissociative state when I'm watching some episodes. A few in the beginning of season 1 keep touching on rape, and the new season (8) has a couple episodes where someone is raped, and the girl has PTSD. The more recent season has been really hard to watch because my friends come over, and I know they know about my incidents. I'm constantly thinking "what are they thinking about this/me?" I don't want them to be thinking of me, I want them to be not thinking about my rape stuff and be watching the show.
I know they care, but I get overwhelmed just thinking about what they might be thinking of. I can hardly handle the stuff in my own head.
My friend, Gretchen, before coming to my house to watch 24, she'd text me mid-episode and ask how I'm doing with it. I really appreciated it, but it's rough to address how I'm feeling while being exposed to something. I'm used to just zoning out. I still take in stimuli, so I know what's going on, but my mind is elsewhere (that blank-stare thing). I start touching something repeatedly, tapping, rubbing, etc, for that self-soothing thing, which helps me stay grounded, but it's totally subconscious and I don't realize I'm doing it until I snap out of that state.
Does anyone else have experience like this? How do you handle it?
I know they care, but I get overwhelmed just thinking about what they might be thinking of. I can hardly handle the stuff in my own head.
My friend, Gretchen, before coming to my house to watch 24, she'd text me mid-episode and ask how I'm doing with it. I really appreciated it, but it's rough to address how I'm feeling while being exposed to something. I'm used to just zoning out. I still take in stimuli, so I know what's going on, but my mind is elsewhere (that blank-stare thing). I start touching something repeatedly, tapping, rubbing, etc, for that self-soothing thing, which helps me stay grounded, but it's totally subconscious and I don't realize I'm doing it until I snap out of that state.
Does anyone else have experience like this? How do you handle it?