Last night, I found out through a childhood friend of mine, that my uncle, my father's older brother who is also in the military, is looking for me and wants to see me. I guess he approached her asking where I was... he's been looking for me ever since I took off 5 years ago. He almost found me 3 years ago, but I moved again and changed my name. He and my aunt are not bad people, in fact, they were always very good to me, like a second set of parents almost, but up until now I have not wanted any contact with my family or people from my past. It's been too painful. Plus he is still in the military, so that's another trigger for me. The last time he tried to contact me, I was really angry with him and couldn't move fast enough to "escape"... now however I feel kind of guilty for running away from him and everyone else. I guess I'm wondering if I should meet with him or let him find me or whatever. I'm very very afraid though, I don't want to fall to pieces. I know obviously this is a decision I have to make for myself, but if anyone has thoughts on it, please share them.