whiteraven
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I'm stuck in this place I just can't escape. No matter what I do - exercise, volunteer work, play with the cats - I feel this intense heaviness that underlies everything. I thought that getting paid work might help and I finally did get some part-time seasonal work, but that has made it worse. I start next week, and I just want to disappear into the woodwork.
This has been an ongoing issue - for a long time - although it seems to lift occasionally. When it does, it isn't gone for long. And it's worse. The only time I feel a genuine lift is when I am photographing animals outside. And sometimes it takes seeing something new - an insect or bird I've never seen around here -to make a difference.
I've been doing all sorts of things to help - eating better, exercising (or at least moving around, walking) more, I have new cats, I'm taking some courses to improve my skills so I can work more freelance, getting out a lot more, staying connected with church, etc.... And it's not so much that it's overwhelming; I'm not doing *too* much - I get plenty of down time.
I was so depressed today, I just went to bed and slept for 4 hours. Woke feeling worse. It's hard to drag myself around to do anything.
Guess I just needed someone to hear. Thanks.
This has been an ongoing issue - for a long time - although it seems to lift occasionally. When it does, it isn't gone for long. And it's worse. The only time I feel a genuine lift is when I am photographing animals outside. And sometimes it takes seeing something new - an insect or bird I've never seen around here -to make a difference.
I've been doing all sorts of things to help - eating better, exercising (or at least moving around, walking) more, I have new cats, I'm taking some courses to improve my skills so I can work more freelance, getting out a lot more, staying connected with church, etc.... And it's not so much that it's overwhelming; I'm not doing *too* much - I get plenty of down time.
I was so depressed today, I just went to bed and slept for 4 hours. Woke feeling worse. It's hard to drag myself around to do anything.
Guess I just needed someone to hear. Thanks.