Just had therapy with T, told her about the report card comments from when I was little and when things changed. A funny feeling came over me and I had to sit on the floor. I felt so little, I still do, I don't remember leaving her office, I remember bits of going home. Like standing in the middle of a busy road trying to cross 5 lanes of traffic. But I keep slipping into different levels of feeling little. I want to call T because I don't like this feeling and it's new, but sometimes my voice gets little and I don't want her to hear that. Is this dissociation? I dissociate lots but this feels different. I feel so little inside and out, I want T's hug or her hand to hold so it makes this feeling end.