Yes...I do come back with the same old topic. No need to tell me that, I know!
Once again there was a situation at work where someone talked to me in a military tone. I got aggressive and answered back saying loudly "that I am not going to Do that" ect, but still kept myself under control although I did want to lash out at her. I will talk to her again and ask her why she reacted that way? I do this if people react in a certain way.
I feel I wasnt powerful enough..I wasnt showing my dominance. The thing is, I was active, I said my opinion. It always feels as if I lost the game. Which game? I cannot be the one who Did something in order to please someone- If I have an enemy then he/ she will "destroy" me- so in order to survive I must make the abuser " like" me.
I know this originates from the past...
But its extremely hard right now... I got triggered...
Purusha..open your eyes https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/15299732.2017.1295373
Once again there was a situation at work where someone talked to me in a military tone. I got aggressive and answered back saying loudly "that I am not going to Do that" ect, but still kept myself under control although I did want to lash out at her. I will talk to her again and ask her why she reacted that way? I do this if people react in a certain way.
I feel I wasnt powerful enough..I wasnt showing my dominance. The thing is, I was active, I said my opinion. It always feels as if I lost the game. Which game? I cannot be the one who Did something in order to please someone- If I have an enemy then he/ she will "destroy" me- so in order to survive I must make the abuser " like" me.
I know this originates from the past...
But its extremely hard right now... I got triggered...
Purusha..open your eyes https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/15299732.2017.1295373
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