I've been having vivid nightmares every night for a year. They are so scary, vivid and often involved with people in my past traumatic experience. In my dreams i often meet people who have bullied me from kindergarten to highschool. In my dream, I often meet my abuser that already dead too. I often meet my abusers that are still alive too. The dreams mostly are repeated traumatic experiences i had in different forms. Or it could also involved murder and blood where i am is so helpless in the dream. Sometimes when the nightmares are too vivid, i woke up in the middle of the night having panic attack and extreme fear. I don't know what to do. I can't call anyone and i can't talk to anyone since everyone are sleeping. I feel so helpless and i don't know how to help myself. I can't afford therapist and we don't have free therapist in my country. I'm so scared that my body is shaking when i woke up. and when i try to fall back asleep, i will have another nightmare. I feel so hopeless. I don't know who is willing to hear my nightmares, especially knowing how brutal it is, i know sharing to people might help, but i really don't have anyone to talk to or anyone who would care to understand. How do you deal with nightmares?