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Wanting to disappear

SophieBernstein

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I've been having some issues with an inner girl that wanted to hurt me but now I think she isn't around. I'm just confuse about everything because the reality is like blurry and everything seems like a dream or a memory... It's weird I feel desorientated.
And also I have an increasing desire and urge to disappear. Not killing myself but getting drunk and with an overdose of benzodiazepines.
I don't know what is happening, I'm tired of everything... I may take a rest.
 
I've been having some issues with an inner girl that wanted to hurt me but now I think she isn't around. I'm just confuse about everything because the reality is like blurry and everything seems like a dream or a memory... It's weird I feel desorientated.
And also I have an increasing desire and urge to disapear. Not killing myself but getting drunk and with an overdose of benzodiazepines.
I don't know what is happening, I'm tired of everything... I may take a rest.
@SophieBernstein, it sounds like you're going through a difficult time right now. I am here to provide support and help you work through your current feelings and thoughts. It's understandable that you may feel disoriented and confused, given your current inner struggles.

One possibility is that you may be experiencing dissociation, which can be a response to trauma. Have you experienced any traumatic events in your life that may contribute to your current state? Blurry reality and memory loss are both common symptoms of dissociation. It may be beneficial to talk with a therapist who specializes in trauma to gain a better understanding of your experiences.

Regarding your inner girl, can you tell me more about what you mean by that? It might be helpful for us to explore it further together. Are there any specific triggers that you can identify that may cause you to feel this way?

It's concerning to hear that you have an increasing desire to disappear. It may be helpful for you to reach out for support from family, friends, or a crisis hotline. Have you considered seeking professional help to work through these feelings and urges in a safe and productive manner?

Remember to take care of yourself, and please let me know if there is anything specific that you would like to discuss.
 
@SophieBernstein, it sounds like you're going through a difficult time right now. I am here to provide support and help you work through your current feelings and thoughts. It's understandable that you may feel disoriented and confused, given your current inner struggles.

One possibility is that you may be experiencing dissociation, which can be a response to trauma. Have you experienced any traumatic events in your life that may contribute to your current state? Blurry reality and memory loss are both common symptoms of dissociation. It may be beneficial to talk with a therapist who specializes in trauma to gain a better understanding of your experiences.

Regarding your inner girl, can you tell me more about what you mean by that? It might be helpful for us to explore it further together. Are there any specific triggers that you can identify that may cause you to feel this way?

It's concerning to hear that you have an increasing desire to disappear. It may be helpful for you to reach out for support from family, friends, or a crisis hotline. Have you considered seeking professional help to work through these feelings and urges in a safe and productive manner?

Remember to take care of yourself, and please let me know if there is anything specific that you would like to discuss.
I had a strange childhood but not really bad... some sexual abuse, bullying, dysfunctional family, incest but not really bad. I mean, i have issues with it but it's not like the worst thing.

I'm on therapy but I don't know why I've been like this lately, I'm not depressed but I want to just reach out of conscience.

My therapist says that the inner girl is a way to exteriorate my self-hate feelings and my self-destructive behaviours. She is like another person inside of my head, mad and extremely dangerous for me but I had her under control even It's exhausting.
 
I had a strange childhood but not really bad... some sexual abuse, bullying, dysfunctional family, incest but not really bad. I mean, i have issues with it but it's not like the worst thing.

I'm on therapy but I don't know why I've been like this lately, I'm not depressed but I want to just reach out of conscience.

My therapist says that the inner girl is a way to exteriorate my self-hate feelings and my self-destructive behaviours. She is like another person inside of my head, mad and extremely dangerous for me but I had her under control even It's exhausting.
@SophieBernstein, thank you for sharing more about your experiences and therapy. It sounds like you have been through some challenging experiences in your life that may be contributing to your current struggles.

It's good that you are already in therapy and working through your issues with your therapist. It can take time, but with consistent effort and support, you can learn to manage your self-hate feelings and self-destructive behaviors.

Regarding your inner girl, it sounds like your therapist has already provided some insights into what it could represent. It's possible that this inner girl is a manifestation of your subconscious thoughts and emotions. It may be helpful to continue exploring this aspect of yourself in therapy to gain more understanding and control.

In the meantime, it's important for you to continue prioritizing your self-care and seeking support when needed. If you ever feel overwhelmed or have the urge to harm yourself, please reach out to your therapist or a crisis hotline for immediate assistance.

Remember that you are not alone in this journey, and there are resources and people available to help you through this difficult time.
 
@SophieBernstein, thank you for sharing more about your experiences and therapy. It sounds like you have been through some challenging experiences in your life that may be contributing to your current struggles.

It's good that you are already in therapy and working through your issues with your therapist. It can take time, but with consistent effort and support, you can learn to manage your self-hate feelings and self-destructive behaviors.

Regarding your inner girl, it sounds like your therapist has already provided some insights into what it could represent. It's possible that this inner girl is a manifestation of your subconscious thoughts and emotions. It may be helpful to continue exploring this aspect of yourself in therapy to gain more understanding and control.

In the meantime, it's important for you to continue prioritizing your self-care and seeking support when needed. If you ever feel overwhelmed or have the urge to harm yourself, please reach out to your therapist or a crisis hotline for immediate assistance.

Remember that you are not alone in this journey, and there are resources and people available to help you through this difficult time.
I have the urge of getting drunk and I'm not sure if can control it
 
I have the urge of getting drunk and I'm not sure if can control it
@SophieBernstein, the urge to get drunk can be a way to cope with difficult emotions and stress, but it's important to recognize that it may not be a healthy coping mechanism in the long term. It's understandable to feel like you may not be able to control this urge, but there are steps you can take to manage it.

Have you tried identifying the reasons for your desire to get drunk? Is it to escape or numb your feelings? Is it to cope with stress or avoid dealing with a difficult situation? It may be helpful to explore these questions with your therapist, as they can help you develop healthier coping mechanisms.

In the meantime, try to engage in self-care activities that can help to alleviate stress and improve your mood, such as exercise, mindfulness, or spending time with loved ones. Avoid situations or triggers that may make it harder to resist the urge to drink.

If you find that you're struggling to handle this urge on your own, don't hesitate to reach out to your therapist for additional support. They can provide you with more personalized strategies to help you manage this urge and work towards healthier coping mechanisms.

Remember that you have the power to take control of your thoughts and behaviors, and seeking support is a positive step towards achieving this. Take care of yourself, and don't hesitate to reach out for help when needed.
 
@SophieBernstein, the urge to get drunk can be a way to cope with difficult emotions and stress, but it's important to recognize that it may not be a healthy coping mechanism in the long term. It's understandable to feel like you may not be able to control this urge, but there are steps you can take to manage it.

Have you tried identifying the reasons for your desire to get drunk? Is it to escape or numb your feelings? Is it to cope with stress or avoid dealing with a difficult situation? It may be helpful to explore these questions with your therapist, as they can help you develop healthier coping mechanisms.

In the meantime, try to engage in self-care activities that can help to alleviate stress and improve your mood, such as exercise, mindfulness, or spending time with loved ones. Avoid situations or triggers that may make it harder to resist the urge to drink.

If you find that you're struggling to handle this urge on your own, don't hesitate to reach out to your therapist for additional support. They can provide you with more personalized strategies to help you manage this urge and work towards healthier coping mechanisms.

Remember that you have the power to take control of your thoughts and behaviors, and seeking support is a positive step towards achieving this. Take care of yourself, and don't hesitate to reach out for help when needed.
Can you speak in spanish?
 
What happens if you have every symtomps of cptsd but you didn't suffered any trauma? I might be BPD?
It's important to recognize that having symptoms that are often associated with Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD) does not necessarily mean that you have C-PTSD. While C-PTSD is usually caused by exposure to prolonged and repeated trauma, some of the symptoms associated with it can also occur in other mental health conditions such as Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).

It's important to speak with a mental health professional who can assess your symptoms and provide a proper diagnosis. They can help determine if your symptoms are caused by C-PTSD, BPD, or another mental health condition.

Borderline Personality Disorder is a mental health condition characterized by unstable emotions and relationships, impulsive behaviors, and distorted sense of self. People with BPD may also have a history of trauma, but trauma is not always the root cause of BPD.

If you believe you may have BPD, it's important to speak with a mental health professional who specializes in treating personality disorders. They can provide you with a proper diagnosis and recommend treatment options that may include medication, therapy, or a combination of both.

Remember, seeking help for mental health concerns is a positive step towards improving your overall well-being.
 
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