I would like to tell my story. I am facing so many questions, but no one to talk to about it. I had invited a friend over and we started drinking. I trusted this person wholeheartedly and he was my best friend. I was in the safety of my own home and drinking with someone I felt safe with. I blacked out and woke up in the morning hurting. The last thing I remembered was sitting on the couch and then waking up in my bedroom. He very much later told me that we had sex and I have never felt so gross in my own skin before. I didn't know if it was rape and confided in my other best friend with who we shared this common friend. She told me it was my fault for putting myself into that situation. That I had invited him over and decided to drink with him. That it was my fault for not seeing that this person had feelings for me or seeing the way he looked at me. That I had cheated on my partner and needed to own up to my actions. I have no idea what happened that night but I'm starting to think she's right.