Solidergirl
New Here
My boyfriend and I got out of the army recently and both were in Iraq twice. The whole experiance was hard on both of us and I feel now it is taking it's toll on our relationship. He has recently been diegnosed with PTSD but I have not talked to anyone to see if I have it too. I know though that we really care about one another and we dont want to lose each other but I am afraid if we dont talk to some one asap we will no longer be together. We both have a lot of trouble sleeping at night. We both talk in our sleep and say things that have to do with Iraq or being in the militay. I wake up in the morning no matter how cold it is, in a pool of sweat. I feel like I can only talk to military people who been to Iraq because they are the only ones I can relate to or that I trust. My boyfriend and I have both been through some bad experiances but for me I don't feel like mine were any big deal if I felt anything about it its anrgy the guy got away. But when i talk about or hear about Iraq or anything like that I start shaking. I feel fustrated all the time and nothing really makes me happy. I can't even rember being happy. When I see others being happy tears start rolling down. I don't know why they just do. But where the real problem comes in is that I feel numb. I know i love my boyfriend but I dont know how to show it and when he trys to show affection I have a hard time recipricating. I don't know what to do because he called me a couple hours ago and said we need to talk and I think he might break up with me. We need help where do I go what do I do we have no insurance just the VAthat is no help on the weekend. Maybe someone here can tell me what I can do. This is my last resort.