I’m reaching out to find people that understand. 3 years out of a 7 year hellacious relationship. 1 child with abuser. I’m not scared anymore and pretty numb to him. No contact for 1.5yrs. The problem is the here and now and feeling obsolete. Married 6 months, with him for 2.5 years. Amazing man. I feel invisible. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere. Im completely constipated when it comes to being able to voice my needs or feelings. I feel like everyone around me is satisfied and thriving and I’m drowning. I feel guilty and full of shame for having these feelings and it’s just a viscous cycle of personal torture.