I am feeling a little antsy as I have a lot of hopes riding on the new Medicare program and I am having to wait to find out if I was accepted into this great program or not. Other than that, I am basically feeling happy and relaxed.
I'm feeling very sarcastic tonight. So much so that I've had to save a very damning email to my landlord in draft form as I really probably shouldn't send it tonight.
As I have been everyday for the past 4 months..sad and so confused and trying so hard to stop the loop that is on constant rewind...will he contact me? Will I ever see him again? Why is there still silence? Trying to move on but with no answers..ugh. How and why did we end up here after 2 yrs of a wonderful relationship?? Not only have I lost the love of my life but also his family that I bonded with. His PTSD is such a cruel illness
I am still trying to keep my eyes open as I am on muscle relaxers, and it makes me sleepy. I feel lonely, horny and unwanted. Not too glamorous but it is the truth.
Feeling much better this morning. I feel determined, enlightened, validated, and less undesirable than I felt yesterday. I am going to talk to my nurse at the center about taking Cialis as I have had a long-running script of Viagra and want to use Cialis instead. I am excited as I may start casually dating again. I feel I will attract the right partner for me.
Relieved my sister didn't hit/ get hit by a deer that raced in to the road this morning. Lucky she got new front and rear brakes and rotors just recently. First repair on those, ever. And ABS and no one behind her.
Sad a young woman died in the cold outside this week, face down and alone in a bus shack. I wish I could afford/ be able to manage to shelter some people who are homeless.
I am missing my sister, brother, mom and dad and my niece. All are family members who have passed on. My heart is grieving a bit, I'm just sort of sad and having breathing difficulty this morning. So, I need to go and do a nebulizer treatment. But back to how I'm feeling. I am tired, I have no energy, my body is sore, I have not been sleeping well. But though I feel really lonely right now, I know things will work out just the way they are supposed to.