whiteraven
MyPTSD Pro
I am unable to go to any healthcare provider without an immense amount of anxiety, dread, tears, and more anxiety. Rather than be able to associate it with one major traumatic event, I see my reactions as related to multiple events during which the "care" I was offered was harmful in some way. Too much medicine, a refusal to accept my suicidal thinking as anything other than trying to get attention, misdiagnosis of pneumonia (symptoms attributed to depression), misdiagnosis of chronic kidney disease (I just don't have it), insistence I take meds that were causing intense, impulsive suicidal thinking, refusal to acknowledge/treat constant pelvic pain, etc....I have probably 2 dozen examples. I've come to a point where I don't feel heard by anyone, where nothing I say to doctors is taken with any sincerity, where nowhere and no one in the medical community feels safe.
I definitely experience trauma reactions to medical care. I cry uncontrollably, explode in anger, shake, or just avoid the whole mess. My blood pressure is always high when I see a provider - but fine at all other times. Taken alone, all the many things I've had to deal with medically would be no big deal, but these things happen over and over again and are outside the "norm" for good medical care.
So...can the accumulation of these sorts of things constitute "trauma," in the ptsd (or complex ptsd) sense? Or am I just being a baby? (LOL)
I definitely experience trauma reactions to medical care. I cry uncontrollably, explode in anger, shake, or just avoid the whole mess. My blood pressure is always high when I see a provider - but fine at all other times. Taken alone, all the many things I've had to deal with medically would be no big deal, but these things happen over and over again and are outside the "norm" for good medical care.
So...can the accumulation of these sorts of things constitute "trauma," in the ptsd (or complex ptsd) sense? Or am I just being a baby? (LOL)