Like, as a fantasy? I'd be a neurologist, probably working with dementia and geriatric populations. I got some dope exposure to that specialty and it was a real contender when I was pre-premed.
In reality? I just want to be able to focus on the good things I have and enjoy every second of freedom. If I can talk to folks and help 'em even if it's only online, well, that's the best I can do right now.
I'd love to volunteer or have a small job or finish my education but no one is willing to help me achieve these things and it is simply impossible for me to do on my own, so it's just a fairy tale.
I also have fantasies that are no longer doable. Ways I wish I were, things I wish I could have focused on in school and worked at after.
Now? I want to live surrounded by animals and woods, I want to be *content* and busy caring for/being with the animals and writing. I want to be free to do as I please, when I please. I don't want to feel obligated to anyone or any organization. And I want to live according to my own values.
I'm living down in KY full time and enjoying my dogs and goats. I've added chickens and a couple of bee hives. There is a huge garden and I am walking again, pulling weeds in a garden, canning, hiking with the Newfs, kyaking on the river, swimming with the Newfs, milking goats, etc. etc. Thing is, I don't think these are dreams, but more goals and time and recovery will make them a reality.
when i grow up i just want to be able to do the things i enjoy and shut the door on things i dont. retired, but far from sedentary, thats always been the goal and i have collected the things i will need when i grow up. stay up late and play music, get up early and go fishing, take a roadtrip and stop when i want and go when i want. a moveable feast
I have one really huge stressor left in my life. I would love for it to be gone.
And to be able to go out and do stuff - not in the measured way I do now - just to go and do.
To be able to get out and play golf again.....
Apart from those few things....life is pretty good.....
I am single, and I'd like to keep it that way.
I want to always learn. So, those types of goals need to stay a priority.
I want the freedom to go and not be trapped.
Small place, just enough really.
I want to be approachable and kind.
I can't imagine a future, but I do want some things, as dangerous as that is.
Mostly, I want to learn everything I can. Fly, surf, neuroscience, building, fixing, writing, passion, vulnerability, love; all of the things.
Immediate answers are that P lives for many more years and healthily, and the same goes for me and we get to stay in this home too. Also to keep my lovely friend, that she also lives many more years and healthily, or at least that her health doesn't deteriorate.
I am fairly frightened of the pair of them dying.
Then bonus items are somehow gaining some functioning.