i am wondering if panic attacks look different for different people? i think i have developed a way to maintain an appearance of functioning when i have them, if that is what they are. i am just wondering if there is criteria, b/c maybe i just have a major internal freak out and it's not a panic attack. i don't know. today three different people said "you get this far away glossed over look in your eyes", and they said it really out of the blue. and i wonder what this is? it is usually when i am really panicky inside or really fearful. and it doesn't mean i am in a dangerous situation, but sometimes i can feel like i am when i am around good people...it has the opposite effect that you would think it would have...good people=safety and love...RIGHT. for me good people=panic, fear, confusion, doubt, cynicism, depression, want to leave but want to stay. but i don't know what NORMAL IS ANY-F-ING MORE. i have lived like this for SO LONG, that how do i BEGIN to identify things like TRIGGERS. i have heard some describe their panic attacks as really loud and painful. mine are not loud, *if that's what they are* i am very skeptical about this and very confused as you can tell. i feel like a psycho.