somerandomguy
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This morning I said "I am a good person" to myself for the first time, and I started to feel ... things. I can't identify these feelings except there is a whole big ball of confusion mixed in.
I have just recently been able to tell myself that I am not a bad person and actually believe it. I am NOT a bad person.
But telling myself I am a good person seems like a bridge too far for me, because if I am a good person, that must also mean there are bad people. And while I believe there are people out there who have done the most despicable, horrible, inhuman things ... my personal philosophy tells me that there are no bad people, just severely damaged people who do terrible things. (I'm not sure there are good people, either - just people who do good things?)
I know many will disagree, and maybe I'm wrong. But how can I reconcile wanting to be a good person or even BEING a good person with the fact that if I am a good person, it follows that there must be bad people out there as well. If there are no bad people - just people who do bad things - there must also be no good people either ... and I want so much to be a good person.
I'm sorry if this makes no sense. I am very confused.
I have just recently been able to tell myself that I am not a bad person and actually believe it. I am NOT a bad person.
But telling myself I am a good person seems like a bridge too far for me, because if I am a good person, that must also mean there are bad people. And while I believe there are people out there who have done the most despicable, horrible, inhuman things ... my personal philosophy tells me that there are no bad people, just severely damaged people who do terrible things. (I'm not sure there are good people, either - just people who do good things?)
I know many will disagree, and maybe I'm wrong. But how can I reconcile wanting to be a good person or even BEING a good person with the fact that if I am a good person, it follows that there must be bad people out there as well. If there are no bad people - just people who do bad things - there must also be no good people either ... and I want so much to be a good person.
I'm sorry if this makes no sense. I am very confused.