It would put you in a worse place than you are now. I know, I drank at 2 1/2 years and had to start all over. Do you go to meetings?And I've also had times where its been hard to resist thinking about taking a drink. 3 months 17 days and every time I think about it I tear up because I know where I'd end up is a really bad place.
Sweets.. You need a sponsor that is available. Get the most intimidating woman there! Someone that really knows her stuff and you know what I mean, start looking because another relapse is not going to help you. All alcohol does is dehydrate you so your brain is reacting to the fast dehydration@Deanna yes I went to two different ones each week before this mess started. Now I only see one of them on zoom. I haven't heard from my sponsor much. Should probably call her, but she isn't used to being home as I am. I know I would still be having problems with staying away from it since its still close to my relapse. I'm not balanced yet with my meds and I know that is also partly why its hard right now.
My husband says he admires my commitment to sobriety and I've told him when I'm struggling. When I quit years ago it and my ptsd and hidden bipolar together made me make an attempt. I started aa pretty much to help with continued survival.