while instinctively jumping to my personal rendition of nirvana, i remind myself to stick to achievable goals.
i am doing better when i achieve yesterday's achievable goal. and am still ready, willing and able to set another. it's okay, even desirable, when i set the same goal for today that i did yesterday. this weekend's big events are the return of my 3 foster children from their court-ordered visit with their maternal family, a birthday party for two of those children and the return to school on monday.
no doomsaying. . .
stay calm. . .
have faith in the new normal we've established in our 3.5 years together. . .
At the moment, it would be being able to cope with healthy mechanisms.
If you read a list of unhealthy coping tools, alcohol, painkillers, food restriction, self harm, overwork etc etc I would do the lot. It would be nice to be able to just ‘be’