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so I had notes today for end of therapy questions since this is literally the worst topic for me, until I brought it up today, any time before he would try, I shut it down right away.
I asked everything except for one, that has to do with him. I got scared and I was terrified of his answer or reaction, he knows there is something big on there I was hiding. We agreed to let him keep the notes but put in a sealed envelope until next session....
now I am wondering, is it best to just say, ok actually just read it and let me know if you are upset by it or whatever, if not then we can talk. Problem is, if we wait on me to say it in person, it could be months or never. the fear just overtakes me when it comes to anything related to him and feelings.
I am nervous about just letting him read it on his own though too when I can't see his reaction etc, idk what to do. I wish I had not told him about the part I couldn't say... now he knows there is a piece missing.... what would you do? I'm so scared but at the same time, this topic and all the stuff that goes with it has been eating at me for months. i need to get this out there somehow
I asked everything except for one, that has to do with him. I got scared and I was terrified of his answer or reaction, he knows there is something big on there I was hiding. We agreed to let him keep the notes but put in a sealed envelope until next session....
now I am wondering, is it best to just say, ok actually just read it and let me know if you are upset by it or whatever, if not then we can talk. Problem is, if we wait on me to say it in person, it could be months or never. the fear just overtakes me when it comes to anything related to him and feelings.
I am nervous about just letting him read it on his own though too when I can't see his reaction etc, idk what to do. I wish I had not told him about the part I couldn't say... now he knows there is a piece missing.... what would you do? I'm so scared but at the same time, this topic and all the stuff that goes with it has been eating at me for months. i need to get this out there somehow