I lost my Mum in 2004 when I was 11 & have been subject to ongoing emotional abuse pretty much since then.
My Mom was ill constantly after having me, she suffered from an autoimmune disease & was constantly in/out of hospital.
My Dad has had several toxic relationships since my Mom, which have taken a toll on me & I've feared for my life several times. My Dads ex suffers with bipolar & was abusive to him for years. She was only diagnosed after they split up I think. Some of the things she did include: Threatening to drive her car into the house, grabbing the steering wheel from my Dad whilst on a busy road, constant blazing arguments, threatening my Dad with knives & much more.
Because I was never hit or physically abused, I constantly doubt whether what I went through was serious enough to warrant cPTSD.
I would describe my symptoms as Mild on a spectrum of cPTSD symptoms. I've never tried to take my own life or had any serious thoughts about it. I have had thoughts about getting seriously hurt but I would describe them as passive! I don't have panic attacks but wake up every morning feeling anxious. I struggle to focus at work & do anything that builds my career going forward. I am a recovering gambling addict & have struggled with alcohol misuse. I am distrustful of people in general & have social anxiety, however it isn't crippling & I can function socially.
I work with my Dad & we have a relatively successful business. On the face of things, I should be happy, but I'm not!
I feel guilty constantly & never relax. I dislike most people in my family & want to move away.
I want to manage my symptoms & live a productive life.
I feel as though I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in years! I don’t feel safe in my own home even though it is my safe space.
My Mom was ill constantly after having me, she suffered from an autoimmune disease & was constantly in/out of hospital.
My Dad has had several toxic relationships since my Mom, which have taken a toll on me & I've feared for my life several times. My Dads ex suffers with bipolar & was abusive to him for years. She was only diagnosed after they split up I think. Some of the things she did include: Threatening to drive her car into the house, grabbing the steering wheel from my Dad whilst on a busy road, constant blazing arguments, threatening my Dad with knives & much more.
Because I was never hit or physically abused, I constantly doubt whether what I went through was serious enough to warrant cPTSD.
I would describe my symptoms as Mild on a spectrum of cPTSD symptoms. I've never tried to take my own life or had any serious thoughts about it. I have had thoughts about getting seriously hurt but I would describe them as passive! I don't have panic attacks but wake up every morning feeling anxious. I struggle to focus at work & do anything that builds my career going forward. I am a recovering gambling addict & have struggled with alcohol misuse. I am distrustful of people in general & have social anxiety, however it isn't crippling & I can function socially.
I work with my Dad & we have a relatively successful business. On the face of things, I should be happy, but I'm not!
I feel guilty constantly & never relax. I dislike most people in my family & want to move away.
I want to manage my symptoms & live a productive life.
I feel as though I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in years! I don’t feel safe in my own home even though it is my safe space.