Hi guys,
I was seeing therapist #1 for about two years when I was starting to feel a wave of desperation because I was still acting out in ways to push my boyfriend away despite just wanting more closeness. I spent months after the 1-year mark with my therapist doing EMDR with her and it got to a point where I wasn't able to cry in the EMDR sessions, and I thought that maybe it meant those particular traumatic memories weren't that strong and that they were easier to tackle in EMDR.
Now I know that I was dissociating to prevent me from feeling the intolerable, but ever since roughly October or November, I began seeing a second therapist for CRM (Comprehensive Resource Model) and I'm finally able to cry during the processing sessions with her. I can also catch myself in a trigger and kind of "tuck it in" so it's no longer derailing my adult self.
I'm just wondering if anyone else has also tried CRM because I'd love to have someone to relate to. I've been feeling really isolated and depressed, trying to avoid anything that would trigger me.
For anyone who isn't familiar with CRM, google "newsweek trauma" and the first result should say "a radical new therapy...."
I was seeing therapist #1 for about two years when I was starting to feel a wave of desperation because I was still acting out in ways to push my boyfriend away despite just wanting more closeness. I spent months after the 1-year mark with my therapist doing EMDR with her and it got to a point where I wasn't able to cry in the EMDR sessions, and I thought that maybe it meant those particular traumatic memories weren't that strong and that they were easier to tackle in EMDR.
Now I know that I was dissociating to prevent me from feeling the intolerable, but ever since roughly October or November, I began seeing a second therapist for CRM (Comprehensive Resource Model) and I'm finally able to cry during the processing sessions with her. I can also catch myself in a trigger and kind of "tuck it in" so it's no longer derailing my adult self.
I'm just wondering if anyone else has also tried CRM because I'd love to have someone to relate to. I've been feeling really isolated and depressed, trying to avoid anything that would trigger me.
For anyone who isn't familiar with CRM, google "newsweek trauma" and the first result should say "a radical new therapy...."