Sexual Assault When strangers assault you at your home and stalk you after

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I had a large group of strangers sexually abuse me at my home as a teenager and my parents went cold about it and said their was nothing they could do. These strangers stalked me and made a sick game of it for the next 26 years. They are very wealthy and well connected like Epstein in fact I know for a fact they are in the Bill Clinton Intelligence Agency Rape Crew. They make Jeffery Epstein look like he was kind to his victims as he didn't try to push them into suicide after he threw them away like they tried to push me into suicide a few times. I stay away from people who are to affluent because I know they rape people the hardest when they can get away with it, and I have a lot of PTSD issues as I will never be safe in my life ever again. I don't even know where or how to begin to do self help and research about this. Perhaps I can look up how people who have been molested and tormented by Catholic Priest and the cover up emotionally cope with life after the fact. They are done with me now that I am 41 and old to them as they like the young girls and they started on me when I was 16. I am too old now to be of much fun for them. Epstein had so many men lined up for teenage girls.... He was just one of many men who hate raped us out of our minds.... Or maybe they only did the hate rape to insanity to me? Anyway anyone have any advice or any research they have run across about groups of strangers psychologically assaulting someone until they are completely broken or commit suicide? I don't know where to look and I have look every were for cases like mine that have healed or have information on how to cope. They took away 26 years of my life degrading and hurting me over child pornography that was taken un-consensual and with out my knowledge of it being done until after they had given it to people who make Epstein look mentally and emotionally healthy and kind. I feel so alone in my trauma. I don't know where to find any information about anything like this. So if anyone has ran across something or can even tell me what to google I will do it. I am very proactive and responsible for my recovery. Please help. I can find information on like rape, stalking, and stuff like that but nothing about being passed around to abusive sick men that like tormenting you for being traumatized sexually, mentally, emotionally, and psychologically as a kid.
 
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No and I need one. I am on a waiting list to get into Rape Services Counseling, and I don't know how long that will take. I need therapy obviously, and that is the only resource I have at this moment. I have medicare and they have few if any options where I live for help.
 

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in fact I know for a fact

Can I ask how you know for a fact these things, & if you have someone to check your fears about wealth and fears for your safety with, who might give you an additional opinion?

Sounds to me current news are triggering your old trauma, however that theres no relation between what is going on now, and the events in your life history.

I can find information on like rape, stalking, and stuff like that but nothing about being passed around

However, porn rings? Damned common, all of these / grooming the kid, more often their siblings & closest friends, threats and stalking and other intimidation BS games to limit disclosures that work greatly only because the victims are kids at the time they begin / would not work on an adult the same, etc. So, not alone.

... Though really, it does not matter for recovery, since the basic ways to recover are still the same... Whether that was a single assailant or more of them.

One thing that worries me about this, is you said you need to research abuse like yours... which I totally get... but there is a lot of suicide risk for being alone and trying to tackle complex trauma, esp. if that was early childhood trauma...

So very seconding Cypress on the suggestion to have an established professional support, first.
 

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Can I ask how you know for a fact these things, & if you have someone to check your fears about wealth and fears for your safety with, who might give you an additional opinion?

Sounds to me current news are triggering your old trauma, however that theres no relation between what is going on now, and the events in your life history.

How I know for a fact is I lived through it. The news is triggering me badly that is correct.
Sounds to me current news are triggering your old trauma, however that theres no relation between what is going on now, and the events in your life history.

I am sorry but you do not have the right to say I did not live trough this with the same people. I just had more than Epstein around. I know for a fact as one of the victims dear. I do need a therapist again and I tend to reach out on this site when I am in serious pain, very serious pain. Perhaps I might think twice about that though in the future. Perhaps this is not a safe venue to get help as people tend to be cruel when they don't want to believe you for whatever bias they have in their mind. The news is driving me crazy and the FBI doesn't do shit to help. I tried to contact them at 38 when I was stalked abused shot at and threatened after the fact and it lasted until this last thing with Epstein ending up dead. Other people are relieved he died and had been stalked too

Jeffrey Epstein's Latest Accuser Is an Artist Who Claims the Billionaire Sex Offender Lured Her in With Promises to Help Her Career | artnet News

her name is Marina Farmer and she has been staked one year less than me.

I am no fan of any politician after my personal experiences, so please don't say anything about the last election no politician is a saint, and no I didn't vote for trump or hillary. Thank you for the concern. I have lived this long I will fight to continue to live. And, I do need help. I am trying to get into therapy through Rape Counseling Services.
 
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