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HI,
I have an amazing T that is very specialized and great at what she does. We have worked together for a year now and made some great progress. There is just something that really upsets me/bothers me. My main assault was 16 years ago.. When I was only 14.It was prolonged and by a stranger. It haunts me to this day and I have only disclosed it in the past 5 years, and started to work on it, report to police and tell family in past 1.5 years.
The thing that really upsets me is when my T points out it was 16 years ago. I know how long ago it was. I know I should not let my thoughts be consumed by it and should not be so focused on it but I cant help it. I was diagnosed with PTSD and when we discuss details of the trauma its like certain parts only happened yesterday. I know she says it because she is trying to get my head into the present and to make me realize how long ago it actually was but it just makes me feel more useless and worthless and like a fool that is going on and over the same old thing. Not making the progress I should be or being pathetic for letting something 16 years ago have so much presence in my present if that makes sense.
Anyone else get annoyed or upset over something like this or a certain thing someone keeps saying to you?
I have an amazing T that is very specialized and great at what she does. We have worked together for a year now and made some great progress. There is just something that really upsets me/bothers me. My main assault was 16 years ago.. When I was only 14.It was prolonged and by a stranger. It haunts me to this day and I have only disclosed it in the past 5 years, and started to work on it, report to police and tell family in past 1.5 years.
The thing that really upsets me is when my T points out it was 16 years ago. I know how long ago it was. I know I should not let my thoughts be consumed by it and should not be so focused on it but I cant help it. I was diagnosed with PTSD and when we discuss details of the trauma its like certain parts only happened yesterday. I know she says it because she is trying to get my head into the present and to make me realize how long ago it actually was but it just makes me feel more useless and worthless and like a fool that is going on and over the same old thing. Not making the progress I should be or being pathetic for letting something 16 years ago have so much presence in my present if that makes sense.
Anyone else get annoyed or upset over something like this or a certain thing someone keeps saying to you?