So -fifteen minutes ago i had this positive thought that i could go to a small town where i feel safe. .i don't feel safe in the city ...i was going to buy a small gift for one of my few friends. I even got out of bed and dressed..then i got back in bed to keep warm until husband was ready.
Then i got the jiggly feet thing and pounding heart and i knew i couldnt go ..why ? Why does my brain switch to this ? Is it because i had my 1st " i want to punch and shout at everyone who walks behind me or next to me or towards me" experience in public the other day ? If my husband hadn't been with me would i have stood backed into a corner of that building frozen for ever? Is this the start of something else ? It was different to the feelings of fear i often experience, this was anger ..is this normal?
Then i got the jiggly feet thing and pounding heart and i knew i couldnt go ..why ? Why does my brain switch to this ? Is it because i had my 1st " i want to punch and shout at everyone who walks behind me or next to me or towards me" experience in public the other day ? If my husband hadn't been with me would i have stood backed into a corner of that building frozen for ever? Is this the start of something else ? It was different to the feelings of fear i often experience, this was anger ..is this normal?