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My biggest avoidance feature is by far relationships.
I don't feel able to trust people, it's like I'm waiting for some form of abuse to manifest at any given moment. Even though I'm aware of this it doesn't make it any easier to want to make friends.. I would like people to hang with but the desire not to be hurt once more is greater.
I'm at a bit of a loss where to turn.. my parents abuse me when I'm at my most vulnerable, as have mental health professionals.. Each blow feels like another 'I told you so'.. It kills me after each time I put myself back together and brave the unknown again. I can never seem to get any traction to shoulder shrug the negative comments of others.
Do others here with PTSD/CPTSD experience such difficulties?
I often feel guilty for not trying hard enough, I feel I'm making all these excuses up to avoid interactions and being hurt..
Does anyone here have advice how to get through this difficulty of:
a) Reward/risk ratio to making friends while suffering with CPTSD? What made it easier for you?
b) or Stories of successful developments in outlook towards people and relationships?
Thanks
I don't feel able to trust people, it's like I'm waiting for some form of abuse to manifest at any given moment. Even though I'm aware of this it doesn't make it any easier to want to make friends.. I would like people to hang with but the desire not to be hurt once more is greater.
I'm at a bit of a loss where to turn.. my parents abuse me when I'm at my most vulnerable, as have mental health professionals.. Each blow feels like another 'I told you so'.. It kills me after each time I put myself back together and brave the unknown again. I can never seem to get any traction to shoulder shrug the negative comments of others.
Do others here with PTSD/CPTSD experience such difficulties?
I often feel guilty for not trying hard enough, I feel I'm making all these excuses up to avoid interactions and being hurt..
Does anyone here have advice how to get through this difficulty of:
a) Reward/risk ratio to making friends while suffering with CPTSD? What made it easier for you?
b) or Stories of successful developments in outlook towards people and relationships?
Thanks